An Act Of Bravery, An Act Of Love
By: Kenda
Droplets
of cold water blew backwards from the nozzle of A.J.'s garden hose. The blond didn't even flinch as the icy
spray pelted his bare arms and legs.
The July sun was hot. The cool
water against his skin made for a refreshing contrast.
A.J.
circled the Camaro, hosing off the remaining soapsuds. When he noticed a few spots of dirt he had
missed on the car's frame, he released the handle on the pressure nozzle and
let the hose fall at his feet. He
picked up a bucket of warm, soapy water.
He swirled his hand around inside the suds until he encountered the
oversized sponge. He crouched down next
to the car, scrubbing vigorously until no signs of dirt remained.
Setting
the bucket aside, the blond retrieved the hose once again and resumed rinsing
the car. He adjusted his sunglasses,
perching them more firmly on the bridge of his nose. It was almost noon.
Probably not the smartest time of the day to be standing out on his
blacktop driveway in the direct summer sunlight wearing nothing more than a
pair of faded denim shorts, a pale blue Hanes T-shirt, and Nike running
shoes. Nonetheless, there was little
A.J. found more relaxing on a bright summer Saturday than washing his sports
car. And unbeknownst to the blond man,
very little his neighbor ladies found more relaxing than discreetly watching
the handsome private investigator wash his car in the tight-fitting, sleeveless
shirt that nicely showcased his well toned biceps and pectorals.
As
A.J. made his final pass around the car he saw a maroon Ford Taurus slowly
driving down the street. He didn't
think anything of it one way or another when he saw the car pass by again
headed in the opposite direction. A.J.
gave the car a good deal more attention when it traveled his street for a third
time. It was then that he noticed the
rental license plate, and assumed some neighbor's out-of-town relative was
trying to locate the correct house number.
A.J.
was rolling up the hose when the same maroon car pulled up to the curb in front
of his home. The detective didn't stop
what he was doing, but from behind his sunglasses watched a man exit from the
driver's side and walk toward him.
A.J.
immediately guessed the man to be somewhere between forty and forty-five. He was five foot nine and was thirty pounds
overweight. The extra weight he carried
didn't diminish his broad barrel chest, thick neck, or beefy forearms. His curly hair was a dusty gray. It receded several inches off his forehead,
and was brushed backwards until it came to rest in a wavy mass on his
shoulders. Its muted hue was further
emphasized by two deep blue eyes. The
man's moustache and beard matched the color and texture of his hair. The curly gray beard had been allowed to
grow down over his chin several inches, making A.J. think the guy could play a
heck of a realistic Santa Claus come Christmas.
The
heels of the man's boots clopped against the pavement of A.J.'s driveway as he
approached the blond.
"I'm
sorry to bother you," came the baritone apology. "I'm looking for an old friend of mine, and this was the
address I was given by a mutual buddy of ours.
Or at least I think this is the address."
A.J.
secured his garden hose and reached for the scrap of rumpled paper the man held
out to him. With a puzzled frown the
blond nodded.
"Well,
yes...this is 2604 Grand Canal. Who is
it you're looking for?"
"A
guy by the name of Rick Simon."
"Oh. Rick Simon," A.J. deadpanned. "Sure, I know him. He used to live on a boat in my back
yard."
The
man cocked his head as though he had trouble with his hearing. "Did you say what I think you
said? He lived on a boat in your back
yard?"
"As
unorthodox as it sounds, yes, he did.
However, I was forced to evict him when yet another month went by
without a rent check."
A.J.'s
visitor had no idea as to whether to take the blond seriously or not. He thought he could detect a hint of humor
behind A.J.'s solemn tone, but he wasn't sure.
He stood there filled with indecisiveness, not knowing if he should ask
any more questions or simply leave.
A.J.
took pity on the confused man, but wasn't going to give information out
regarding his brother's whereabouts without having some idea as to what the man
wanted. In their line of work, such
indiscretion could prove fatal.
"Why
is it you're trying to locate Simon?"
"He's
an old buddy of mine from the Marine Corps.
We served together in Vietnam. I
haven't seen him since I was shipped home in August of '71. Almost sixteen years ago now. I live in Indiana. My wife and I are out here on vacation. Our first one without the kids.
All three of them are away at 4-H camp, so we're treating ourselves to a
second honeymoon."
"Good
for you. I hope you and your wife are
enjoying our famous California sunshine."
"We
are," the man confirmed. "I
was also hoping to see Rick while I was here.
Of course, maybe he doesn't even live in the area anymore. I know he was born and raised here in San
Diego. And I know his mother was a
widow, and he had a younger brother named...T.J., or R.J., or C.J., or
something like that. Heck if I can
remember what the kid's initials stood for, though I probably knew at one
time. But I guess none of that's very
much to go on, when it comes to tracking someone down in a city of this
size. I'm sorry to have bothered
you. Thanks for your ti--"
"Just
a minute." A.J. halted the man's
progress to his car. "I can tell
you where Rick's at. Better yet, I can
give you directions to his place, and I'll even throw in his phone number to
boot."
"But
I thought you said you evicted him for--"
A.J.
grinned at his own joke. "I was
kidding...sort of. Rick did, in fact,
live in my back yard on his boat at one time.
But he moved to a slip at a local marina two years ago." A.J. stuck out his hand in greeting. "I'm his brother A.J."
"Damn! That's it. A.J.!" The man grabbed A.J.'s hand, giving it a
series of hard, enthusiastic pumps.
"That's been driving me nuts ever since I got here! I knew it had a J in it."
A.J.
chuckled as the exuberant man slapped him on the back. "I'm really pleased to meet you,
A.J. At one time I knew all about
you. Your grades, your girlfriends,
what was going on in the neighborhood..." the veteran abruptly broke off
his monologue. Self-consciously he
stammered, "I uh...I hope Rick
told you that he shared your letters with everyone. We all did. Shared our
families letters, that is. At least the
parts that weren't too personal. Mail
from home was such a precious commodity, that it would have been selfish not to
share whatever news we could."
A.J.
smiled gently with understanding.
"I know. And yes, Rick told
me long ago that he shared my letters with his friends. And speaking of Rick's friends, I don't
believe I caught your name."
The
man shook his head at his oversight.
"I'm sorry. Bruce
Gibbens."
Although
the man's last name didn't mean anything to A.J., he did recall Rick mentioning
a Bruce somebody-or-the-other having been a close friend of his while he was in
Nam.
"Come
on in the house," A.J. invited.
"I'll write down Rick's address and phone number for you. I can also give you directions to his place,
though he won't be home until late tomorrow afternoon. He's at a tournament with his bowling league
up in L.A."
Bruce
followed A.J. into the kitchen.
"Thanks a lot. I really
appreciate all the trouble you're going through for me."
A.J.
removed his sunglasses and laid them on the counter top. He pulled a pen and clean piece of paper out
of a kitchen drawer. "It's no
trouble." In his neat, crisp
penmanship, A.J. wrote out Rick's address and phone number as promised. With a wave of his hand he invited Bruce to
sit down at the table.
"Have
a seat and I'll go over the directions with you. I can write them down if you'd like. It's not too difficult.
He only lives about a fifteen minute drive from here."
"Thanks. I'd appreciate that. I'm not used to navigating my way around a
big city. I live in the town I was born
and raised in. Covington. The population is around five thousand. I've gotten lost more since we came to
California than I've gotten lost in my entire life. If you'll pardon me saying so, you people really do drive
like maniacs out here."
A.J.
laughed. "Yes, we do. Or at least some people do." A.J. opened the refrigerator and pulled out
a bottle of imported German beer.
"Can I offer you a beer?"
Bruce's
eyes lit up as he caught sight of the label.
Rick's kid brother knew how to treat a visitor right. "Sure.
Thank you."
A.J.
opened a bottle for himself and Bruce, then joined the man at the kitchen
table. As they slowly savored the dark,
rich brew, A.J. wrote down directions to the marina and carefully went over
them with Bruce.
When
the man was reasonably certain he could find Rick's place without too much
trouble, he folded the paper in fourths and put it in his shirt pocket. "If you talk to Rick before I get a
chance to drop by his place, don't tell him I'm in town. I'd like to surprise him."
"Your
secret's safe with me," A.J. assured.
"I know he's going to be thrilled to see you."
Bruce
took another swallow of beer. "I'm
really looking forward to seeing him, as well.
A person shouldn't let sixteen years go by without seeing someone who
was once one of his closest friends. I
just don't know what happened to the time.
It seems like I was always meaning to contact Rick. I've had this address, your address, for at
least five years. I always meant to
drop Rick a letter, or a card at Christmas time but, I don't know, every day
life tends to intervene somehow. My
wife and I have been busy raising our family, taking care of my elderly mother,
then I started my own business...it just seems like there's no time leftover
for much of anything else.
"When
Arlene, that's my wife, when Arlene and I decided to come to Southern
California for our vacation, I told her, 'Arlene, one of the first things I'm
gonna do when we get to San Diego is look up Rick Simon.' So here I am."
"I'm sure he'll be pleasantly
surprised. And I can assure you that he
hasn't forgotten any of the men he served with in Nam. He talks about each one of you every now and
then."
Bruce's
hands cupped his now empty beer bottle.
His face took on an odd expression, as though he was remembering a time
that was both pleasant, and full of sorrow.
An expression A.J. might not have understood had he not seen it on
Rick's face each time he reminisced about Vietnam.
"Your
brother's a good guy, A.J.," Bruce stated solemnly. "One of the best."
A.J.
was quick to acknowledge in a quiet voice, "Yes, he is."
"It's
a damn shame about that medal. Rick
deserved it. He should have gotten
it."
"Medal? What medal?"
"The
Silver Star. He was promised it. I'm fairly certain our commanding officer
sent the papers in. But I heard from
Greg - our mutual buddy who gave me this address - that Rick never got it. The Star, that is. Is that true?"
"Well...yes...yes,
it is. He was awarded a Purple Heart, but nothing else." With the same amount of gentle subtlety he
used in his everyday work, A.J. probed, "What exactly was Rick supposed to
have gotten this medal for? What did he
do?"
Bruce
let his mind drift back seventeen years.
It was day he'd never forget. It
was a day that still haunted his dreams.
"Saved the
whole damn platoon, that's what he did.
And those bastards in Washington never even gave him proper recognition
for it. Hell, Rick shoulda' been
awarded the Congressional Medal Of Honor for what he did that day. God knows the guys in charge - the officers
- woulda' let us die out there. They
didn't have the balls to come to our aid.
We were expendable. We were
nothing more than grunts. Enlisted
boys. Some of us hadn’t even graduated from high school." Bruce rolled the beer bottle back and forth
in his palms. He looked across the
table at A.J. "If it wasn't for
your brother...well, if it wasn't for your brother, I wouldn't be sitting here
talking to you today, A.J. I wouldn't
have come home to my fiancé. I wouldn't have gone on to father three of the
best kids this world has ever seen. And
there's ten other guys who can say the same thing. There’s ten other guys who wouldn't have made it home alive if it
hadn't been for Rick Simon."
A.J.
swallowed hard, knowing he was about to ask a lot of this man.
"Would you
tell me about it? About what Rick did
that day?"
"He's
never told you." Bruce's words
weren't in the form of a question or a guess.
They were a statement of fact.
"No,"
A.J. shook his head. "He's never
told me."
"That
doesn't surprise me. I've never told
anyone about it either. It's not
something that's...easy to remember."
A.J.
didn't say any more to his visitor. He
wouldn't pressure him to talk. He
respected the man's right to decide whether or not the incident was too painful
to discuss.
Bruce
sat a long time in silence collecting his thoughts. He didn't even notice when A.J. rose to retrieve two more
beers. He looked up and smiled his
thanks when a cold bottle was placed in front of him. He took a long, slow pull, then sat the bottle aside.
"It
was a long time ago, A.J. A long time
ago." The man absently stroked his
beard. "It'll be seventeen years
this September. Yet, in some ways, it
seems like it was just yesterday. It
was hell. Hell on earth. Yet even at his worst, Satan couldn't have
made things as bad as they were. I
think the real Hell...if there is such a place, will be a proverbial Sunday
school picnic compared to what we went through that day."
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It
had started out as a routine patrol.
But nothing ever stayed routine for long in Vietnam. Or so Sergeant Richard Simon had discovered
during his two tours of duty.
They
were treading through a dried-up marsh, fighting jungle grass so thick it was
like wadding through four feet of heavy snow.
The long grass wrapped around their ankles and tangled in their
bootlaces, forcing the men to continuously wrench themselves free of its grasp. It grew as high as Rick's shoulders in
places. The shorter men, those under
five foot ten, were almost obscured from view.
The Marines had to carry their machine guns above their heads to keep
the grass from becoming entangled around them as well. It wasn’t exactly the most productive way to
carry a firearm you were supposed to shoot the enemy with, or so Rick thought.
Rick
turned around and gauged his men's progress by the movements of the upraised
guns. His radioman, Lance Corporal
Bruce Gibbens, was eight paces back to Rick's right. Bruce's progress was further hampered by the two-way radio he
carried in a pack around his waist.
In
a voice just above a whisper Bruce joked,
"Hell of a way to get somewhere, Sarge."
"No
shit," was all Rick said in return.
Rick
scanned the area in front of them. It
looked like they were about three quarters of the way across the vast
marsh. He could see the back of his
point man, an eighteen-year-old private who'd only been in-country three
months. Kevin Patrick McElroy looked as
Irish as his name implied. He had
bright red hair and eyelashes, complete with a sprinkling of freckles across
the bridge of his nose. The guys had
taken to calling him Howdy, after the popular television puppet of their
childhood, Howdy Doody, whose painted-on coloring matched Kevin's. The boy took the teasing in stride and tried
his best to give as good as he got. He
knew eventually someone would come along who was younger than him, and take his
place as the butt of the practical jokes and pranks. He just had to live long enough to see it happen.
Rick hated putting a kid that green up front,
but he had no choice. They rotated the
men on a daily basis. It was the only
fair way to do it. If they came upon
Charlie without warning, it was the man on point who generally bought the farm
first.
Rick
stopped for a moment and looked all around him. Aside from himself, Bruce, and Kevin, ten other men were flanked
out behind him. But it wasn't the men
that had his attention. It was the
stillness. An uncanny quiet that made
Rick shiver for a moment, despite the oppressive heat. No birds could be heard calling in the
nearby trees, and the familiar whine of the ever-present insects was absent as
well.
Man,
I don't like the feel of this, were Rick's last thoughts before all hell
broke loose. The eerie silence from
moments earlier was shattered by the violent ‘rat-a-tat-tat’ of ear splitting
machine gun fire. Bullets strafed them
from the front. McElroy's body was
tossed in the air like a child's discarded rag doll by the force of the lead
slugs that split his chest wide open, before the rest of the platoon even knew
what was happening.
"Get
down!" Rick yelled. "Get down!"
Rick
could hear Bruce on the radio, frantically calling in their position. The rest of his men pushed forward, the
razor sharp grass slicing their faces as they scrambled through it on their
hands and knees. Rick fired a
continuous round of his own machine gun as he crouched down and ran for
McElroy's body. Just has he had already
guessed, the private was dead. Blood
streamed out his mouth and nose, and his open blue eyes stared up at Rick as
if, even in death, he was pleading for his sergeant's help.
Rick
had no time to grieve for the boy. Any
sorrow and guilt he felt over the youth's violent death was shoved deep inside
himself, to join an abundance of sorrow and guilt already buried there for
every young man he had seen die in Vietnam.
The
machine gun fire kept them pinned down in the front, and was soon joined by
more coming from the left, and then from the right. Rick and his men returned fire as best they could at an enemy
they were unable to see, but it became quickly apparent they were hopelessly
outnumbered.
Rick
turned to Bruce. "Are they sending
a chopper?"
"When
they can!"
Rick
tossed a grenade in the general direction of the heaviest gunfire. "What
the hell does that mean?"
"It
means the assholes are gonna let us sit here!"
"Well,
get back on that thing and tell 'em ‘when they can,’ ain't good
enough!" Rick commanded.
Machine
guns continued to spray fire back and forth from both sides, until Rick knew he
had no choice but to signal his men to retreat. Bruce was still on the radio, but only getting empty promises of
assistance. Rick was hoping the long
grass would conceal his men's movements and hamper Charlie both at the same
time.
With
a wave of his hand Rick signaled, "Come on! Let's get the hell outta here!"
Bruce
grabbed his arm. "Sarge, the only
thing behind us is a minefield."
"Then
we're gonna cross it."
"Rick..."
Rick
jerked his arm free. "Bruce, we've got no choice! Charlie's comin' at us from every direction
but that one. It's our only way
out."
Crouching
low so as not to make themselves an easy target, Rick and his men retreated as
fast as the unstable footing of the marsh would allow. They continuously turned and lobbed grenades
blindly behind them. If nothing else,
the explosions kept Charlie on his toes.
Just
as Rick had hoped, the thick reed-like grass hid their movements. The gunfire from behind slowly died out,
until it seemed Charlie was only making a half-hearted attempt at pursuing
them. Rick hadn't been playing war with
the Vietcong for this long, however, as to be so easily fooled. They were just waiting for one of his men to
reveal their position by returning fire.
"Unless
you see one of those sons-of-a-bitches up close and personal, hold your
fire. No more grenades either."
"But,
Sarge--" one of the men started to protest.
Rick
turned and commanded sternly, "I mean it.
If any one of you so much as shoots a water pistol at 'em, I'll wrap
this machine gun right around your neck.
Now come on. Follow me. Stay quiet and stay low."
The
men followed Rick, copying his posture by walking in a position so crouched they
were practically crawling. They were
five feet from where the marsh met an open field when Rick stopped.
"I
don't think they're behind us anymore," a nineteen-year-old Alabama boy
whispered.
"Oh,
they're back there all right," Rick assured in a hushed tone. "They know they have us trapped on
three sides. They think we've got no
choice but to turn around and walk right back to 'em."
"But
we don't, Sarge," Bruce reminded.
"That's a minefield in front of us."
"I
know it is. But we're goin' across."
"But--”
Rick
shook his head at Bruce. He gathered
his men around him in a tight circle.
"I don't know about you guys, but I have every intention of gettin'
out of this mess alive today. A box of
cookies arrived from my mother yesterday that I haven't had a chance to eat
yet. Every man that makes it outta here
with me gets to share in the spoils."
Despite
the horrifying situation they found themselves in, Rick's words made the men
chuckle.
"Crawfield,
give me your rifle."
The
black man looked at Rick with puzzlement, but did as he was told. Aside from his Marine-issue machine gun, he
was also carrying a rifle with a three foot long bayonet he'd picked up off a
dead Vietcong soldier.
Rick
made eye contact with each and every man who looked to him for leadership. "I'm gonna be the first to cross."
Bruce attempted to protest one last
time. "Sarge--"
Rick
held up a hand to silence the man.
"I'm gonna be the first to cross.
If we're lucky, Charlie's doin' just what I think he is and waitin' at
our rear for us to return. This marsh
is so thick, and the grass so tall, he won't be able to see what we're up
to. We shouldn't have to worry about
him.
"Using
Crawfield's handy bayonet here, I'm gonna mark every step I take. The ground looks to be soft enough over
there that the bayonet should make a pretty good slice. You guys walk right on top of my marks and
nowhere else. When you get to the other
side, bury yourselves in the grass again and provide cover for everyone else if
need be. Otherwise, my orders are the
same as before. Keep your mouths shut,
and hold your fire. Don't give away our
position. Once we're all over there,
we're gonna hightail it back to camp."
Rick
turned to his radioman. "And you
keep tryin' to get help sent our way.
Tell 'em we'll take whatever they can give us. Right now I don't much care if it's nothin' but Santa Claus and
his eight tiny reindeer. If nothin'
else, he'd distract Charlie for a while."
Bruce
gave a tight smile and nodded.
Rick
scanned the sweat-beaded faces of his men.
Though some did a better job of hiding it than others, there was no
mistaking the terror in their eyes.
Men,
Rick thought with sarcasm. Most of
them are nothing more than boys. Boys
who somehow think I can make this all better.
Boys who think I can get them out of this hellhole alive.
Rick
chased away his negative thoughts.
"If I don't make it across, someone else is going to have to
try."
Rick
didn't intend to pick anyone for that job, he guessed overall that if he were
blown to bits by a mine, it wouldn't make too much difference to him who tried
next. He just didn't want them to give
up.
"I'll
go," Bruce volunteered.
"Crawfield knows how to work the radio."
Rick
nodded. "Good enough." He turned away to step out into the open
field.
"Good
luck, Sarge," someone whispered from behind.
Rick
gave a little wave of his hand in acknowledgment.
Even
seventeen years later, every man who was present that day would remember
holding his breath as he watched Rick Simon walk through that field that was
armed with Vietcong mines. Rick would
remember offering up a brief prayer right before he started his journey, though
the prayer wasn't for himself. It was
for the safety and well-being of the men he was responsible for. The last part of his prayer asked the Lord
to watch over his mother and A.J. should anything happen to him, and to give
them both the strength they'd need to deal with his passing.
And,
Lord, please help A.J. understand why I had to do this, was how Rick's
prayer ended that day.
Because
the ground was soft beneath Rick's feet, he was able to detect some suspicious
indentations that he surmised were mines.
That was about as easy as it got.
He couldn't do more than take his chances, walk lightly, and stagger his
steps. There was little one learned in
Marine combat training in regards to crossing a minefield. Basically one was advised not to. However, if one had no choice, you were told
to keep in mind that the perimeter of the field is most certainly always mined,
so taking a large step over it is advisable.
From there, the old joke was, you walk softly and pray.
Every
safe step Rick took he marked by ramming the point of the bayonet into the
ground, marking both his right footstep and his left.
It
seemed like an eternity before Rick crossed over into the unmined long grass on
the other side. In reality, his trip
had taken him four minutes. Rick's men
didn't make a sound, but he could hear their silent cheers. He crouched down in the grass to watch the
next man cross, Rick’s machine gun poised and ready in the crook of his
elbow.
Rick
wiped at the sweat running freely down his face, and swallowed hard in the
hopes of bringing some saliva back to his parched throat. He looked down with surprise at the
trembling hand that rested atop his gun, and willed it to stop shaking. He took just a moment to admit to himself
how absolutely terrified he'd been while crossing that field, then brushed his
fear aside. By the time his Alabama
private had arrived safely, Rick was once again the picture of hardened combat
veteran.
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"Eleven men
made it across that minefield that day, for no other reason than your brother
was foolish enough...and brave enough, to cross it first. We were sitting ducks, A.J. We had nowhere to go. Rick was right. Charlie never gave it a thought that we'd be dumb enough to
travel the only route open to us. A
route they thought would surely blow us to bits if we tried. We no more than had completed our crossing
when two helicopters arrived. The
napalm they dropped took care of Charlie for us. We walked back into camp an hour later singing Rick's
praises. I marched right up to our
commanding officer and gave him a full report on what Rick had done. When he verified it with the other men, he
called Rick into his tent. He told Rick
he was going to submit his name for a Silver Star. You know what your brother told him?"
A.J.
shook his head.
"He
said he was just doin' what Uncle Sam paid him to do. He said McElroy had died out there. Rick said that if the mission had really been successful, no one
would have lost his life.
"That's
just the kind of sergeant your brother was, A.J. He cared so much about the men who answered to him, and he tried
so hard not to show it...or to take credit for it."
A.J.
gave Bruce a gentle smile that afternoon.
Softly he said, "Yes. That's just the kind of guy my brother
is."
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It
didn't surprise A.J. in the least when his telephone rang early Monday morning,
and it was his brother's voice he heard on the other end.
"Hey,
A.J. I didn't wake you, did I?"
A.J.
had picked up the phone in the garage.
"No. I just finished
lifting weights. Another minute and
you'd have caught me in the shower."
"Oh,
good. I mean, it's good that I didn't
wake you...or catch you in the shower.
Listen, I'm gonna play hooky today if we don't have anything urgent
going on."
Even
though Rick couldn't see the gesture, A.J. shook his head. "No.
Nothing urgent that I can think of."
"Bruce
- he said he met you Saturday when he came by your place lookin' for me - and
his wife showed up on my doorstep at seven o'clock last night. They stayed until midnight, but Bruce and I
didn't really get a chance to finish catchin' up with each other."
A.J.
smiled. "No. I'm sure you didn't."
"So
anyway, he and I wanna spend the day together. Arlene's going to be visiting a cousin of hers that doesn't live
too far from here, so I thought Bruce might enjoy fishin' from the deck of my
boat. I'm gonna take the two of 'em out
to supper tonight, as well."
"That's
fine. You take all the time you
need."
"Thanks,
A.J. I appreciate it on such short
notice and all."
A.J.
laughed. "Like you ever give me
any kind of a notice when Carlos entices you to run off somewhere and play
hooky. This is actually a rare
treat."
"Well,
don't get used to it, little brother.
I'm not plannin' on changing my ways anytime soon."
"I'm
sure you're not," came A.J.'s playful sarcasm. "Will I see you tomorrow?"
"Oh
yeah. Bruce and Arlene are headed up
the coast tomorrow morning on the last leg of their journey. I'll probably see if they'll let me treat
'em to breakfast before they go, but I should still be at the office by
nine. Ten at the latest."
"Okay. I'll see you tomorrow then. Have a good time today."
"I
will. See ya' tomorrow, A.J."
A.J.
hung up the phone and exited the garage.
Despite the light tone of the conversation he'd just had with his
brother, A.J.'s thoughts grew solemn.
He recalled the harrowing story Bruce, with much difficulty, had relayed
to him on Saturday afternoon.
Without
even having to think about it, A.J. understood perfectly why Rick had never
pursued the medal he had been promised.
Rick Simon's actions had never been motivated by rewards or
recognition. Rick's motivation came
from within. From nothing more than
loyalty and friendship, and a sense of responsibility toward those he loved and
held close to his heart. The majority
of the time the two people on the receiving end of that undying devotion were
Cecilia and A.J. But many times that
same devotion, a devotion that would cause Rick to sacrifice his own life for
the life of another without thinking twice about it, extended to friends as
well. Friends, and those young men in
that platoon Rick felt responsible for.
The
hot water from the shower sloshed over A.J.'s head. He reached blindly for the shampoo as he made a decision. He didn't know exactly how he'd go about it,
but one way or another he was going to see Rick was given the recognition he
was due for the act of bravery performed so long ago. He'd get Rick that Silver Star, or die trying. Maybe it wasn't important to Rick, but it
was important to A.J. And it would be
important to their mother, as well.
As
he stood there with soap running down his face and back, A.J. decided that
today was as good a day as any to get started.
He had a lot of research to do, and a lot of phone calls to make. With Rick out of the office for the day,
the blond detective figured he could at least make a dent in some of the above.
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Eleven
months after Bruce Gibbens' visit, A.J. had to chuckle at his own naiveté. He had foolishly thought a few well-placed
phone calls to his congressman, and the Department Of Veteran's Affairs, would
easily rectify the problem of the overlooked Silver Star. How A.J. wished it had been that easy.
A.J.
had been on the phone the entire day that Monday back in July that Rick was out
of the office, and hadn't even managed to talk to the right person in either
the congressman's office, or at Veteran's Affairs. From there, A.J.'s progress slowed drastically. He didn't want Rick to know what he was
doing, so each and every phone call and letter was done covertly either from
home, or at those times Rick was out of the office for a few hours, or away on
vacation. A.J. even spent the better
part of a week of his own vacation pursuing his quest.
A
multitude of the blond's private investigation skills came into play as he was
forced to track down the commanding officer who had supposedly sent the papers
in for Rick's citation. It took him six
weeks, but A.J. finally located the guy in South Carolina, where he had retired
after serving thirty-five years in the Marine Corps. From there, A.J. was forced to get written testimony as to the
events of that day from no less than five men in Rick's unit. Of course, Bruce willingly came through for
A.J., and also supplied him with a list of names of the men who had been on
patrol with Rick that day. What few
addresses and phone numbers Bruce had, however, were long outdated, meaning
A.J. once again had to use his skills as an investigator to track down four
more men. Considering he was working on
the project on a very sporadic basis, that took the better part of four months.
But
finally, in March of 1988, A.J. had everything together his congressman had
said he needed. It was with great
satisfaction that he put all the information he had gathered into a manila
envelope and addressed it to the head of the Department Of Veteran's Affairs in
Washington D.C. Everything from hand
written accounts from the men who had served with Rick, to a neatly typed two
page letter from Rick's former commanding officer, were placed in the
envelope. Not to mention A.J.'s cover
letter that outlined his intent, and quite prominently listed the name of his
congressman in four different places.
A.J. made two copies of everything, keeping one set for himself, and
sending one set to Congressman Trenton, as the man had requested the detective
do.
And
through all those months, Rick never had the slightest idea as to what his
brother was up to. A.J. didn't want
Rick to be disappointed if all his hard work proved futile, and the medal was
denied. If, on the other hand, Rick was
ultimately recognized for his bravery, A.J. didn't want to take any of the
credit for that reward. He preferred
that his efforts remain anonymous, and had stressed this point to the
congressman on more than one occasion.
And,
if it had been up to A.J., their mother wouldn't have known of his efforts
either. As luck would have it, however,
she stopped by A.J.'s house one Saturday morning when he was hard at work on
the project and had papers spread all over his dining room table. When his mother innocently inquired as to
what he was up to, A.J. reluctantly told her, but then made her promise that,
regardless of the outcome, she wouldn't tell Rick what he had done.
It
was early in June that Rick received a letter from Congressman Trenton. He almost threw it in the garbage without
opening it, thinking it was a solicitation for campaign funds. But he knew the congressman was a Vietnam
vet who often campaigned for the causes of veterans, so on that note went ahead
and opened the official looking envelope.
Rick had to read the letter through three times before he fully
understood the impact of it.
He
sat alone on his boat that night with the letter laying open in his lap,
thinking back to that September day in 1970.
He didn't know if he should be rewarded for what he'd done or not. Any good sergeant who took serious
responsibility for his men would have done the same thing. Or so Rick humbly thought. Still...it was nice to recognized with an
honor like the Silver Star, even after all these years.
A
month after that, on a Friday evening in July, and almost a year to the day
when A.J. had first met Bruce Gibbens, Rick was awarded his Silver Star. The ceremony took place at Camp Pendleton
with Rick's former commanding officer, retired Lieutenant General Leroy Larson,
doing the honors of pinning the medal to Rick's chest. Congressman Trenton was present and gave a
speech detailing what had happened that day.
He read parts of each of the letters that were written by Rick's former
subordinates. He also read the short
letter of congratulations President Regan had written to Rick, and sent in care
of the congressman.
The
small hall where the honor was bestowed was packed with Rick's family and
friends. Bruce had flown in from
Indiana. As well, the other four men
who had written letters on Rick's behalf came for the ceremony. Men Rick hadn't seen in almost two decades.
A
small contingent of press people was also there. Rick's picture and a write up about the event appeared on the
second page of the following day's edition of the San Diego Chronicle, and on
the third page of the San Diego Times.
A cameraman and reporter from Channel 3 were present, as well. The story was featured on the six o'clock
news, and then again on the eleven o’clock news.
Rick
stood ramrod straight between the flag of the United States of America and the
Marine Corps. Flag, as his former commanding officer awarded him the long
awaited medal. Cecilia thought her
oldest looked especially handsome and dignified that night in his new navy blue
suit and tie. She had to dab her damp
eyes with a hanky when Lieutenant General Larson pinned the medal on Rick's
lapel. A.J. held her hand in his,
squeezing lightly as the tears overflowed her lace handkerchief and ran without
shame down her cheeks.
In
a tearful voice she whispered to her youngest,
"I wish your father was alive to see this."
“I
know, Mom,” A.J. smiled softly. "I
know. I wish he was, too."
Cecilia
had reserved a banquet room at Rick's favorite eatery, The Steak Pit. All the guests, including the congressman
and lieutenant general, were invited there after the ceremony.
The
celebration went on late into the evening.
When The Steak Pit closed at two a.m., the party continued at Rick's
boat. The majority of guests that were
still present declined Rick's invitation to board the houseboat in favor of
going home to bed. In the end, it was
just the men from Rick's old unit that returned to his boat to continue their
reminiscing.
A.J.
saw Cecilia safely to her car in The Steak Pit's parking lot, then headed for
the Camaro. From across the lot Rick
called, "Hey, A.J.! Come on back
to my place for a while!"
"No
thanks! I'm going home to bed."
Rick,
with the top button of his shirt open, his tie loosened and askew, and his suit
coat long since stowed on the front seat of his pickup, trotted over to his
brother so he wouldn't have to shout.
"Aw, come on, A.J. The
party's just gettin' started."
"That's
what I'm afraid of," A.J. stated dryly, then smiled. "No, you go ahead. Your friends are waiting for you. Besides, you guys will want to talk over old
times tonight."
"You
sure you don't want to come?"
"I'm
sure," A.J. nodded. "Just
keep it down to a dull roar. I don't
want Abbey calling me to come bail you out of the slammer before the sun comes
up."
"Naw,
no danger of that, A.J. I'm gettin' too
old to party that hard."
A.J.'s
disbelief was evident in his teasing, sarcastic tone. "Yeah, right."
Rick
chuckled before turning to join his friends.
"I'll see ya' then."
"Bye. Oh, and, Rick?"
Rick
turned around. "Yeah?
A.J.
walked the four steps it took him to reach his brother. He pulled the older man into a hard
hug. "Congratulations on the
medal. It was long overdue."
The
very surprised Rick could do no more than hug his brother in return. "Thanks, A.J. It means a lot to me that you and Mom were there tonight when
Larson pinned it on me."
"I
know it does," Rick heard softly in his right ear.
A.J.
gave his brother a final clap on the back before releasing him. "Take care. Have fun with your friends."
"Oh,
I plan to, little brother. I plan
to. Now exactly what would be a good
time for Abbey to call you?"
"Go
on," A.J. ordered, while laughing at the teasing. "Get your butt out of here."
A.J.
was nestled comfortably in bed an hour later.
As his sleepy brain reviewed the evening, he knew without a doubt all
the work he'd gone to in the last year had been worth it. Though he'd tried hard to hide it, Rick had
been so pleased. And their mother had
been so proud. And, it had been an
added bonus to share the moment with fifty of their closest friends and family
members, and fifty more later on at The Steak Pit.
Cecilia
was going to have the letter from President Regan framed for Rick. He had promised her he'd hang it right next
to the small glass display case A.J. had given him as a gift that evening that
would hold both his Purple Heart and the Silver Star.
A.J.
smiled as he drifted off to sleep early on that Saturday morning. He was immensely proud of the man he called
big brother. It gave the blond
detective a warm feeling inside to know he was the one who was instrumental in
Rick having been honored that evening, even though that last fact would forever
remain a secret.
It
was a secret A.J. had every intention of taking to his grave.
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The
party on Rick's boat lasted the entire weekend. The actual party angle of the affair ended as the sun came up on
Saturday morning. The remainder of the
weekend was filled with fishing, boisterous talk, teasing, laughter, poker
games, and quiet reminiscing. By Monday
afternoon Bruce was the only man left.
The others had all boarded planes bound for their home states on either
Sunday evening or Monday morning. Rick
drove Bruce to the airport at four o'clock that afternoon so he could catch his
five o'clock flight back to Indiana.
The
two old wartime buddies hugged goodbye at the boarding gate.
When they parted, Bruce hiked his carry-on
bag more firmly onto his shoulder.
"And don't
forget your promise to come out and see me and Arlene next summer. I'm gonna hold you to that, Sarge."
"You
can count on it,” Rick smiled. “I'll be there."
"Tell
your mother and A.J. I said goodbye."
"I
will."
"It's
just like you told me all those years ago in Nam, Rick. You're a lucky man. You've got yourself one hell of a
brother."
Rick
was a little surprised at the intensity behind Bruce's remark, but didn't
hesitate to agree with it. "Well,
yeah...I do."
"A.J.
put in a heck of a lot of time, and endured a heck of a lot of headaches,
working his way through governmental red tape this past year."
Rick's
eyebrows rose into the brim of his hat.
"Whatta' ya' mean?"
"You
know. In seeing that you got your
Silver Star."
"What
did you say?"
"In
seeing that you got your Silver...you didn't know?"
Dumbstruck,
Rick shook his head. "No...no, I
didn't. He's never said a word about
it. No one did. I thought...well, I thought that after all
these years that old paperwork Larson submitted finally showed up
somewhere. I never thought to ask how
all this came about, and no one offered."
"I
wonder why A.J. didn't tell you?"
Bruce asked more to himself than to Rick. "Well, he put in a lot of time on it, I can tell you that. He tracked down Larson and all the other
guys, too. I--"
Bruce
was interrupted by the announcement that his flight was boarding. He gave Rick one last, quick hug. "I'd better get going. See you next summer, Sarge. Take care of yourself."
Rick's
distracted words were lost on Bruce as the man turned for the boarding gate.
"Yeah...yeah, I'll do that."
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Rick
stopped by his mother's house on the way home from the airport. Cecilia was just sitting down to a dinner of
broiled halibut and a baked potato, when the front doorbell rang. Before she could rise to answer it she heard
a key turning in the lock. Knowing her
visitor had to be one of her sons, she remained where she was.
"I'm
in the kitchen!"
She
heard Rick's, "Hi, Mom!" as
he walked through the living room.
Cecilia
greeted her eldest with a smile.
"Hi, sweetheart."
Rick
bent and kissed his mother on her upturned cheek. "Hi. Sorry. I didn't mean to interrupt your
dinner."
Cecilia
started to rise. "It's not an
interruption. Let me fix you a
plate."
Rick
waved his mother back to her seat.
"No thanks. I'm not
hungry. Bruce and I grabbed a sandwich
on our way to the airport."
"At
least get something to drink and join me here at the table."
Rick
did as he was instructed, retrieving a can of Pepsi from his mother's
refrigerator. He sat down next to her,
keeping her company while she ate.
Cecilia
squeezed a half a lemon over her fish.
"I take it everyone has headed home?"
"Yeah. Everyone's gone. Bruce was the last to leave."
Cecilia
smiled. "By the look on your face,
I don't have to ask if you had a good time."
Rick
smiled in return. "We had a great
time. It was really good to see those
guys again. As a matter of fact, we're gonna try to get together again some time
next year."
"I
think that's a wonderful idea," Cecilia agreed, while eating her fish and
baked potato. "They all seemed like nice men."
Rick
nodded. "They're a good buncha’
guys, Mom. They were eighteen years
ago, and they still are today."
Cecilia
reached over and laid a hand atop Rick's.
"I'm glad they were able to come, Rick. It was a special weekend.
I'm so proud of you."
Rick
lifted one shoulder in a humble shrug of nonchalance. "I just did what I had to do."
There
was no mistaking the love behind the soft smile Cecilia gave her oldest
son. "You always do, Rick. You always do."
Rick
squeezed his mother's hand a long moment, then released it. He lightly drummed his fingers against his
half empty soda can.
"I never
thought that what I did was worth making a fuss over. There were a lot of guys over there...in Nam, who did things that
were a hell of a lot braver than what I did.
And a lot of them paid the price for their actions. A lot of them came home in body bags."
"I
know, sweetheart."
"Even
back then...when Larson told me he was putting a citation in for me for the
Silver Star...well, it didn’t mattered much to me that I never got it. I guess that's why I never followed up on
it. What mattered to me was that every
man who followed me across that minefield that day...every man I was in charge
of, came back alive. Every man except
Kevin McElroy, that is." Rick
swallowed hard as he looked into his mother's eyes. "It didn't always turn out that way, Mom. Sometimes the casualties were a lot
higher."
Cecilia
blinked away her sudden tears. She
couldn't do more than nod in understanding as she reached up to lay a tender
hand on the side of Rick's face.
Rick
brought his own hand up and rested it on his mother's for a moment. When he released her he teased lightly,
"You'd better get back to the business of eating. If you don't clean your plate there’ll be no
dessert for you tonight."
Cecilia
chuckled. "Why is it that a
mother's words from the past always come back to haunt her?"
"Because
she said them so many times her sons have them memorized, and constantly look
for an opportunity to use them on her."
Cecilia
nodded her agreement. "You and
A.J. certainly seem to relish doing that to me whenever the right moment comes
along."
Rick
smiled. "Yeah, Mom. I guess we do. Uh, listen...speaking of A.J., did you know he was the one who
started the ball rolling in regards to me getting the medal?"
Cecilia
became very absorbed in adding more butter to her baked potato.
"He
was?"
"Mom..."
Two
innocent blue eyes gazed up at Rick.
"What?"
"I
can tell you know something you don't want me to know you know."
"And
just how can you tell that, young man?"
"The
same way you used to know when I was pulling that trick on you. Now come on. Answer my question. Was
it A.J. who started all this in motion?"
"Rick,
he asked me never to tell you. He
didn't even want me to know. I
just happened to find out by accident."
The
expression on Rick's face clearly broadcast his confusion. "But why? I mean, why would he do this?
Why would he go to all that work for me? And why didn't he ever tell me?"
"A.J.
went through all that work, Rick, because he thought you more than deserved
that medal, and that you were long overdue the recognition."
"Yeah...but
still. Bruce told me A.J. worked on
this for a year. That he went through a
lotta red tape just to make this happen."
"He
did," Cecilia confirmed. "He
even spent one of his vacation weeks working on it. Not to mention many a night after he got home from the office,
and a number of weekends, too. But he
never complained, Rick. He wanted to do
it."
"He
shouldn't have put in all that time.
His free time. I mean, it wasn't
that big of a deal," Rick down played.
"It
was to A.J., son. And it was to me, as
well. And I think, if you'd be honest
with yourself, you'd acknowledge that it is, in fact, a big deal."
Rick
gave a self-conscious shrug.
"Yeah...maybe. But still,
A.J. didn't have to do it."
Cecilia
reached out and clasped Rick's left hand.
"Rick...A.J.
loves you very much. Just like you love
him. And just like you have a hard time
telling him that, he has a hard time telling you the same thing. I think all the time and effort he put into
obtaining that medal for you, was his way of telling you how much you mean to
him - even if he never had any intention of you finding out that it was him who
was behind the effort to begin with."
Rick
gazed thoughtfully at the far wall.
After a moment he agreed.
"Yeah,
Mom. I suppose you're right. I suppose those were his reasons."
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Rick
Simon returned to the office the next day.
He hadn't been there since the previous Thursday, and arrived fifteen
minutes ahead of his younger brother.
A.J.
could see Rick's silhouette as he walked up to the office door that
morning. The smell of freshly brewed
coffee wafted out into the hallway.
The
blond man stepped inside to see Rick already seated behind his desk. "You're early."
A
bag of doughnuts sat on one corner of A.J.'s desk, as did the morning
paper.
A.J.
walked over and filled his coffee mug.
"If I didn't know better, I'd guess you were apologizing for something. But you haven't been here since last
Thursday, and right now it escapes me as to what you might have screwed up
prior to that."
"Ha.
Ha. You're real funny this morning,
A.J. Can't a guy just come into the
office a few minutes early to get a jump on the morning routine."
A.J.
sat down behind his desk. "Yes, a
guy can. But usually, that guy is
me."
"Well,
I was up early, so I thought I'd give you a break."
"Thanks...I
think."
"Whatta
ya' mean, you think?"
"Somehow
I have a feeling I'm going to pay for this.
That you're going to ask me for a favor, or borrow money from me, or
tell me you've used one of my credit cards again, or--"
"No,
no. None of that," Rick dismissed
the teasing. "I just told
you. I was up early."
"Well...okay,"
A.J. finally accepted. The blond
reached for the paper and the bag of doughnuts. "Want one?"
"I
already had two. The rest are
yours."
"Thanks." A.J. ate a glazed crawler while scanning
the headlines. "Did you have a good time with your friends this
weekend?"
"Oh,
yeah. It was great."
The
blond wiped his hands and mouth with a napkin before depositing the doughnut
bag, with one doughnut left in it, on top of the refrigerator. "I take it you guys didn't get into too
much trouble. I never got a phone call
from Abbey."
"No,"
Rick shook his head. "We didn't
get in any trouble. Just fished,
talked, played poker, went out to eat a few times, went bowling, showed 'em
some of the sights San Diego has to offer.
All in all, it was a real good time."
"Glad
to hear it," were A.J.'s words of sincerity. "You guys deserved to have a good time together."
A.J.
went back to perusing the front page of the paper.
Rick
spent a long moment studying his brother's bent head.
"You
know...I suppose someone went to an awful lot of work on my behalf in order to
see me finally get that Silver Star."
A.J.'s
eyes briefly met Rick's. before returning to focus on the paper. "I suppose."
"I
sure wish I knew who it was. I'd really
like to say thank you. I mean, it's not
every day somebody does somethin' like that for me."
A.J.
continued to diligently study the front page.
"Maybe the person doesn't want to be thanked. Maybe he...or she, prefers to remain
anonymous."
"Mmmmm,"
Rick mused. "I wonder why he...or
she, would prefer that?"
"I
don't know." A.J. sat his paper
aside and leaned back in his chair. He
studiously avoided making eye contact with his brother. "Possibly the person just wanted you to
finally have the recognition that was rightfully yours. Maybe the person doesn't want their name
brought into the spotlight. Maybe
they're afraid it would somehow diminish your well-deserved moment of glory. You know how the press can make a big
whoop-to-do over things that are
insignificant."
Rick
gave a contemplative nod. "I
suppose you could be right on all accounts.
Still...I'd like to say thank you.
I'd really feel bad if this anonymous person doesn't know how much what
he or she did means to me."
Rick
waited in silence until A.J. had no choice but to look at him. “Do you think you could convey such a
message for me?"
A.J.'s
blue eyes were wide with innocence.
"What makes you think I know who this person is?"
Rick
shrugged. "Just a feelin' I
have. And if I'm wrong...well, so be it. But if I'm not, I'd like you to say thank
you for me. I'd like you to tell the
person that what
he...or she, did on my behalf, means a
heckuva lot to me."
A.J.
couldn't hide the twinkle in his eyes as he nodded his head. The same twinkle that was mirrored in Rick's
eyes. "Okay. If I ever run across the person I'll tell
him—“
As
one, the brothers finished with, "Or her."
Rick
rose from his desk. "And there's
one more thing I want you to do for me."
"What's
that?"
Rick
came to a halt in front of his brother.
"Stand up."
"What?"
With
a wave of his upturned hand Rick repeated, "Stand up."
A.J.
shook his head in puzzlement, but did as he was told. "Why the heck do I need to stand up?"
"It
has somethin' to do with that one more thing I need you to do for me."
A.J.
tried to sound exasperated at his brother's foolishness. "And just what is that?"
"The
next time you run across this anonymous person we've been talkin' so much about
this morning?"
"Yes?"
Rick
enfolded his younger brother into his arms.
"I want you to give him one of these for me. And make sure you tell him Rick Simon says
thanks."
A.J.
chuckled into the shoulder of Rick's field jacket. He brought his arms up and wholeheartedly reciprocated Rick's
show of appreciation, and show of affection.
"I will,
big brother. Even though I can
guarantee you he'll tell me no thanks was necessary."
Rick
pulled his brother even closer and reached up to cup the back of A.J.'s blond
head with his hand. "It's
necessary to me, A.J.," he whispered.
"It's necessary to me."
"I
know," A.J. softly agreed as he patted his brother’s back. "Because that's just the kind of guy
Rick Simon is."
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