The Sixties: Alive And Well
By: Kenda
*The Sixties: Alive and Well, is
an alternate universe story based on the aired episode, Who Killed The
Sixties. This story takes place
three years later than the above-mentioned episode.
August
1987
To be honest with ya,’ my eyes barely flicked from the TV screen when I
heard the timid knock on the office door.
A.J.'s nose was buried in a file folder, so I guess he assumed I'd jump
right up to greet our visitor. He
assumed wrong. Or assumed wrong until
he glanced over and threw me a dirty look.
"Could
you possibly tear yourself away from this stupid program long enough to answer
the door?"
This
'stupid program,' happened to be Wheel Of Fortune. Aside from the fact that Vanna White and I
were havin’ a torrid affair in my ever-fertile imagination, I had always been
good at hangman. That game had gotten
me through more boring classes than I could count. I figured if I ever had a chance to get on Wheel Of Fortune
I'd be able to retire a wealthy man.
I
used the remote to snap off the TV and sneered at my brother. "See if I let you share in my Wheel
Of Fortune winnings someday."
A.J.
sneered back. "I'd be just as
happy if you'd answer the damn door."
For
once, turning off Vanna White proved to be painless. The lovely young lady awaiting me on the other side of the office
door outshone even Vanna's beauty.
I
guessed her to be somewhere between nineteen and twenty-one. Comparing her to myself led me to estimate
her height at five foot seven. She had
the lithe build of a dancer, complete with well-defined calves and a delicate,
yet strong upper body. Her eyes were
enormous and a startling bright shade of pale blue. Her long mane of thick hair fell to her waist. It was a streaked combination of pale honey
gold, ivory, and in places even stark white, making me think of the smooth
insides of an oyster shell. Her nose
was small, her cheekbones high, and her lips as enticing as succulent
cherries. Her pullover cotton dress was
the same color pink as bubble gum, the upper portion of it styled like a
sleeveless tank top. It flowed freely
until it came to a stop two inches above her knees, giving me an appreciative
glimpse of tanned thighs. Her earrings
and bracelet matched the color of her dress.
She wore a pair of white canvas sandals on her feet. In short, she was the most gorgeous creature
to cross my path in a long time. A very
long time. And since A.J. had made
me answer the door she was all mine.
"Can
I help you, Miss...uh?"
The
girl smiled. "Megan."
Her
smile only enhanced her beauty. It was
wide, deeply dimpled, and made her blue eyes sparkle.
"Can
I help you, Miss Megan?"
She
gave a small laugh. "Actually,
it's Miss Jennings. Megan's my first
name."
"Ey,
beautiful, Megan," I crooned in my best Irish accent. "A lovely lass of the bonnie isle, are
ye?"
The
young woman was a good sport and didn't seem to mind a man twice her age
flirtin’ with her. But with her looks,
I supposed she was used to it by now.
"I
don't know about that, Mr. Simon," she laughed. "About whether or not I'm Irish, I mean. As far as I know I'm Megan simply because my
mother liked the name."
By
this time A.J.'s curiosity had gotten the best of him. Although he'd been able to clearly hear both
sides of the conversation from his vantage point at his desk, he had yet to get
a look at Megan.
"Well,
Megan Jennings," he stated as he came to join us, "I can hardly allow
you to be subjected to my older brother's idea of meaningful conversation while
still standing in the hallway. Please,
come in."
A.J.
flashed a big grin at Megan that wasn't unlike hers, with its deep dimples and
sparkling eyes. Right then I knew I'd
lost her. She only had eyes for my
brother as she allowed him to lead her to one of the chairs that sat across
from his desk. I mighta' been pissed
about the entire situation - after all, I'd seen her first, but I took comfort
in the fact that not only was Megan too young for me, she was too young for
A.J. as well. Hell, we were both old
enough to be her father, and after she got past A.J.'s good looks and
never-ending charm she'd quickly come to realize that. Besides, there was no way a chick as
gorgeous as her didn't have a steady boyfriend.
I
sat down in the chair next to Megan's.
"So, Miss Megan, what can we do for you?"
Megan's
eyes flicked from me to A.J.
"Actually, you can't do anything for me. But I'd like to hire you to do something for my mother."
Politely,
A.J. questioned, "Your
mother?"
"Yes,"
Megan nodded while digging around in her little white purse. She pulled out a picture and a blue ticket
of some kind. She held the picture
tightly against her chest. All I could
see was the yellowed paper of its back, and the scalloped dog-eared edges that
indicated to me it had some age on it.
"My
mother...for many years my mother has been haunted by the death of her older
brother. Her only sibling. My maternal grandmother, who lived here in
San Diego, recently passed away. My
grandfather's been dead for several years now. Two months ago we were cleaning out my grandparent’+s home in
preparation for its sale, when my mother ran across a piece of evidence that
sheds a whole new light on her brother's death."
"What
kind of evidence?" A.J. asked.
Megan
handed him the ticket.
A.J.
studied it a moment before passing it over to me. It was ticket to admit one to an event in Balboa Park billed a
'Concert For Peace,' and was dated August 14th, 1967.
My
rising eyebrow matched A.J.'s. "A concert ticket that's twenty years
old?" I said to the girl. "And why does your mother feel this
ticket changes the circumstances surrounding her brother's death?"
"Supposedly
my uncle died at that concert. Several
people did, as a matter of fact.
Accidental deaths due to a riot of some sort."
A.J.
and I both nodded our remembrance of the incident.
"While
I feel for your mother's loss, Megan," A.J. stated gently, "a riot at
a concert that resulted in deaths or injuries wasn't unusual for that time
period."
"I
know that. We studied the sixties and the turbulence surrounding the end of
that decade in history class last year."
I
exchanged grins with A.J.
"Congratulations, little brother.
We're now old enough to be included in the history books."
Megan
laughed with good humor. "If it's any
comfort to you, neither one of you look that old." She turned to A.J. "Especially not you, Mr. Simon."
"I'm
flattered, Megan. Thank you for the
compliment. And it's A.J."
"I'm
flattered, Megan," I mocked my brother's charm. "Thank you for the compliment."
Megan
quickly tried to make amends. "And
you don't look that old either, Mr. Simon."
I
winked at the girl. "Thank you,
darlin.’ And it's not Mr. Simon with me
either. It's Rick." I sat back in my chair and brought my right
ankle up to rest across my left knee.
"Now gettin' back to the business at hand. What exactly is it that your mother feels is
so suspicious about that concert ticket?"
Megan's
eyes widened as if she was shocked she had to explain the obvious to us. "Don't you get it?"
A.J.
looked at me and shrugged.
"No,
Megan," I shook my head, "I'm
afraid we don't get it."
"How
could my uncle have been accidentally killed at that concert, if he never used
the ticket to get in the concert in the first place?"
Now
she had our attention.
A.J.
leaned forward in his chair and rested his folded hands on his desktop. "And your uncle's body was found
somewhere within the park? Somewhere
within the vicinity of the concert?"
"Yes,"
Megan nodded. "It was. But now Mom found this ticket, and she
thinks he never went. She thinks
someone might have killed him and dumped his body there long before the concert
ever started."
"Why
would someone have wanted to do that?"
A.J. asked. "Did your
mother indicate to you whether or not her brother was in some kind of
trouble? Involved with the wrong
people? Maybe mixed up with drugs or
something?"
"No,
none of those things. Mom said he was a
good guy. That he'd never been in
trouble with the law, and other than smoking a little pot once and a while,
wasn't a serious drug user either."
Megan hesitantly passed the picture to A.J. "But maybe you'd know the answers to those questions better
than I would, A.J."
A.J.
shot the girl a puzzled look as he accepted the picture from her. He stared at it for a few seconds, as if he
thought he should know the young man in it, but couldn't quite place him. Then I saw recognition dawn as a flood of
memories came to the forefront of his mind.
He
looked over at Megan as if I was no longer in the room. "This is Larry."
"Larry
who?" I asked.
A.J.'s
tone spoke his astonishment. "Larry
was your uncle?"
Megan bit her lower lip and nodded.
Louder
this time, I asked again, "Larry
who?"
A.J.
finally focused on me. "Anita's
brother."
That
name brought back a flood of memories for me of a lively little redhead I
hadn't seen since the summer of 1967.
Anita Cooper was the first girl A.J. had been serious about. Serious to the point that he'd purchased her
an engagement ring with money he borrowed from me. Two months after their high school graduation ceremony Anita's
older brother was killed in a riot at the Concert For Peace, just like Megan
said. Or up until now that's what A.J.
and I had both thought, as did everyone else.
Anita
had been devastated by her brother's death.
She became a virtual recluse those first dark days, cutting herself off
from everyone, including A.J. and her parents. A.J. went to Anita's house one day two weeks after Larry's death
in another attempt to get her to see him.
Anita's mother greeted him at the door with tears in her eyes. She told A.J. that Anita had taken off the
day before. Where, neither Anita's
mother or father knew. But they'd
appreciate A.J. letting them know if Anita contacted him.
A.J.
promised the woman he'd do that. And
for a little while, he held out the hope that Anita would, in fact, eventually
contact him. But summer turned to fall
with no word from her. A.J. kept in
touch with her parents for a while. I
think maybe throughout his entire freshman year of college. But they always claimed they'd had no word
from her, and as time passed he moved on with his life. I always suspected he still thought of her
now and then, just like all of us occasionally thinks of an old friend with
whom we've lost contact. But it had
been years since I'd last heard him mention her.
Now
A.J. rose from his desk with a smile of delight spreading across his expressive
face. "Your Anita's
daughter?" He questioned the obvious.
Megan
smiled and nodded. She rose to meet
him. "Yes, I am."
A.J.
reached out his arms to her. She
willingly stepped into his embrace.
From my vantage point, I could see tears shimmering in her eyes. I wondered what the heck those were all about.
"Why
didn't you say something right away?"
A.J. asked Megan as he released her.
She moved to take her seat once again as he perched on the edge of his
desk.
"I
don't know. I...I was going to, but I
was afraid you wouldn't take my case. I
was afraid you'd ask me to leave. You
see, I know you and my mother were high school sweethearts, and that after her
brother's death she disappeared from your life without any explanation. She told me the two of you were
serious. That you had been talking marriage."
A.J.
gave a reflective nod. His words were
spoken quietly, and tinged with remnants of sorrow. "Yes, we had
been. As a matter of fact, I intended
to propose to her on the day we found out your uncle had been killed. After that...well, after that I never got
the chance."
"I
know." Megan's soft tone matched
the sadness in A.J.'s voice. "My
mother told me."
"What
happened to your mother, Megan?"
A.J. was anxious for answers to the questions that had evidently plagued
him for half his life. "Where did
she go?"
"Up
to San Francisco. To Haight
Asbury."
A.J.
nodded. "That's what I had heard
at one time."
Megan's
explanation was short and vague.
"Things was pretty rough on her for a while, but then she met my
father, and with his help she turned her life around."
"And
where does she live now?" A.J.
asked.
"In
Hollander. It's a sleepy little town on
the coast about fifty miles south of San Francisco."
A.J.
chuckled. "Somehow I can't imagine
the Anita I knew living in a sleepy little town."
Megan
smiled. "That's exactly what Mom
said you'd say."
A.J.'s
eagerness to know more about his old girlfriend bubbled over in his voice. "But how come your mother didn't come
with you? Or did she?"
Megan
shook her head. "No, she's not
with me this trip. My dad recently had
open heart surgery. He's getting
stronger every day, but Mom won't leave him.
They're inseparable. They have been since the day they married."
"And
that's as it should be." A.J.
smiled softly. "I'm glad to hear
she's happy. I never wanted anything
but the best for her."
"She
feels the same way about you, too, A.J."
I
thought that was odd. That Anita would
have expressed such strong sentiments to her daughter about an old high school
boyfriend she hadn't seen or talked to in twenty years. Now it was my turn to ask a few questions.
"Does
your mother know you want to hire us to investigate Larry's death, Megan?"
The
words tumbled out of the girl's mouth like marbles spilling from a cup. "No.
And I don't want her to."
She paused there a second in an attempt to regain her composure. I could almost see her mentally cringe the
same way A.J. does when he's berating himself for slipping up and inadvertently
revealing more than he intended to.
"What I mean is, this is something I want to do for Mom. It's my gift to her, so to speak. If you find something that sheds light on
Uncle Larry's death, then eventually I'll tell her what you discovered. If you don't find anything, or if you come
to the same conclusions the police did, Mom never has to know. I don't want to bring up painful memories if
there's nothing to be gained by it."
"That's
understandable," I agreed.
"But I'm at a bit of a loss as to why a young girl like you is
alone here in San Diego. You must
be...what? Eighteen or ninet--?"
With
the speed of a running back, the girl intercepted my words. "Seventeen."
"Seventeen,"
I stated with a nod. "I see. And isn't seventeen rather young to be runnin'
around a strange city by yourself? I
assume you're still in high school."
"Rick..."
A.J. scolded in the tone that told me I was asking questions that were none of
my business. But they were my business,
as my suspicions lead me to conclude that Megan Jennings wasn't quite who she
claimed to be.
Megan
looked at me with wary eyes.
"I
came back to finish packing up my grandparent’s belongings. My mother was supposed to come along as well,
but with my father's health being what it is at the moment, she was unable
to. We agreed that I would fly down
alone and complete the job. There
really wasn't much left to do. We had a
rummage sale when we were here in June, and the remaining furniture and
appliances have been sold with the house.
All that's left now are a small assortment of personal belongings I'm
shipping home via UPS."
"And
you're stayin' there?" I
asked. "By yourself? At your grandparent’s house?"
"No. I'm staying at the Fillmore Hotel. My father is an executive in charge of ad
campaigns for the hotel. It's one of
the largest chains in the country."
"Yeah,
I know. I see their ads on TV all the
time." I didn't go on to say what
I was thinking. That I still found it
hard to believe two responsible parents would allow their seventeen-year-old
daughter to travel alone in an unfamiliar city the size of San Diego. True, the girl seemed mature for
seventeen...maybe even a little too mature for seventeen.
I
changed the subject. "While you'll
find the fee for our services comparable to other detective agencies in the
area, I can't help but wonder where a young woman of...seventeen, will come up
with the money to pay our bill."
Again
A.J. scolded, "Rick." He smoothly turned to Megan
with a smile. "You'll have to forgive my brother's sudden rudeness. He didn't get his nap today."
Megan
laughed politely before swiveling to face me.
"I don't mind Rick's questions, A.J. As a matter of fact, I understand right where he's coming
from."
Megan's
eyes bore into mine as she continued.
"I certainly realize there
will be a fee for your services. I
wouldn't expect anything less. I've had
summer jobs since I was fourteen so I have some money saved up. Plus, my grandparents were generous to me in
their will. What they left me is
intended to go toward my college education, but I'll use what I need to out of
that in order to pay you if what I have saved isn't enough."
"I
doubt that will be necessary," A.J. smiled. "We can discuss exactly how much time you'd like us to put
in on this case and go from there.
Considering you're the daughter of an old friend, you come under the
heading of family, which means you qualify for the Simon brothers’ family
rate. I think you'll find it
considerably less expensive than the non-family fate."
Megan
paled at A.J.'s words. The smile she
plastered on her face seemed to be put there to hide her unrest. She succeeded in hiding it from A.J., but
not from me.
"That's
very kind of you, A.J." She turned
to look at me once more. "And you
too, Rick."
"Don't
worry about it, Megan," I dismissed.
"After all, like A.J. says, bein' you're Anita's daughter and
all...well, that does make you almost like family."
I
put a subtle emphasis on the word 'family,' and watched as the girl turned away
from me with discomfort.
A.J.
led the discussion from there on out.
He determined exactly what it was Megan wanted of us, how much time she
wanted us to put in on the case, gave her an estimate of what it would cost
her, then told her we couldn't make her any promises. He reminded her that we might not discover anything more than the
police had in 1967.
Megan
nodded her head in acceptance of all this and asked that we try anyway for her mother's
sake. A.J. agreed that we would, before
rising from the corner of his desk.
Megan rose as well, and shook his hand.
She turned to me and shook mine too.
It was the first time she'd looked at me since we'd been discussing
those reasonable family rates the Simon brothers offer.
I could tell Megan was surprised when A.J.
impulsively asked her to join him for dinner.
She hesitated before answering him, and my brother blushed deep crimson. He evidently assumed she was under the
impression he was in the process of making a pass at her.
"I'd
just like to ask you some more questions about your mother," he
explained. "You know, catch up on
her life."
"Sure,"
Megan nodded. I could see the relief
wash over her face. As though she was
glad that A.J. hadn’t figured out what it was she was hiding from us. "Sure.
I'd love to. And I'd like to ask
you some questions about my mother as well.
Your parents never seem to tell you much about their teen years. Or at least Mom never tells me much about
hers. It will be fun having the
opportunity to get to know her in a way I never have before."
A.J.'s
smile was wide and genuine.
"Great. I know the perfect
restaurant. The food is excellent, and
we can talk for as long as we want without feeling rushed. After we're finished I'll see you safely
back to your hotel."
"That
sounds fine to me. Though I'll have to
explain to the bellman on duty you're an old friend of my mother's, or he's
likely to do you serious bodily harm.
All the staff at the Fillmore has strict orders to keep their eyes on
me. I can just imagine what a stir it
will cause when I'm escorted into the lobby by a such a handsome man twice
my..." Megan abruptly broke off
her thought as she realized she'd put her foot in her mouth. Her cheeks flushed hot pink. I couldn't help but think she blushed as
easily as A.J. did.
"Twice
your age?" A.J. finished for her
with a good-natured laugh. "I'll
keep that in mind. And we'll make sure
the bellman knows I have no ulterior motives other than seeing you safely to
your room."
My
brother turned to me. "Now Rick,
on the other hand, the bellman might have reason to hurt. It depends on what mood I'm in, as to
whether or not we make my brother out to be as harmless as he really is."
"No
need to worry about that, A.J.," I dismissed. "As much as I'd love to join you and Megan for a session
of...questions and answers, I'll have to pass.
I've already got plans for this evening."
I
coulda' swore I heard Megan heave a sigh of relief. "That's too bad, Rick," she said politely. "I wish you could join us."
I
gave her a pointed look. "Maybe
some other time, Megan. But thanks for
thinkin' of me."
Megan
and A.J. left the office right after that.
I watched from the window as A.J. opened the door on Megan's rental car
for her. She waited until he started
the Camaro, then followed him as he led the way to the restaurant.
I
sat at my desk a long time afterwards, recalling events from twenty years in
the past. I attempted to put two and
two together where A.J., Anita, and Megan were concerned. Trouble was, I kept comin' up with four, and
I didn't like it. I didn't like it one
bit. Even though it was after five, I
picked up the phone and made a call to the courthouse. I was in luck. A woman I was...friendly with, was workin’ late. I briefly outlined what information I was
looking for, and promised her dinner on my boat in return for her help.
She
snickered seductively. "If I know
you, Rick Simon, dinner's not the only thing you're promising."
I
snickered back "Well, you know,
darlin', I do strive to please the ladies."
"And
you do, Richard," she laughed.
"Believe me, you do."
We
broke our connection and I rose to head on home. I spent the night looking through a photo album that vividly
recorded 1967. The pictures brought a
smile to my face, and caused me to remember a lot of things I thought were long
forgotten. When I came across pictures
of A.J. and Anita I wondered if there were some things better off
forgotten, or if in fact, our past indiscretions always return to haunt
us.
S&S S&S S&S S&S S&S S&S
A.J.
and I spent the next week pursuing the events surrounding Larry's death. In a way, it was like taking a bittersweet
trip down memory lane. We talked to a
lotta people we hadn't seen in twenty years, and visited a lotta places we
hadn't been in just as long. The week
brought back a lot of good memories, and a few bad ones, too, I suppose. I was crushed to discover my old biking
buddy, Paz, had died in 'Nam. I hadn't
even known he'd been drafted. After I
left for boot camp I lost track of him.
For twenty years I'd assumed he'd settled down somewhere and was
probably the father of three by now.
Instead, I found out he hadn't lived past his twenty-fourth
birthday.
A.J.
had to deal with the ghosts from his past, as well. The more we dug into Larry's death the less we liked what we
found. In the end, after a week of
almost 'round the clock investigation work, we discovered the then
seventeen-year-old Anita had found herself pregnant in January of 1967 by the
boy she was seeing prior to A.J. A
sleazy gas pump jockey A.J. and I had both known by the name of Carl Bernadini
who, has it turned out, had grown up to remain a sleazy gas pump jockey. According to Anita's best friend Margo,
Anita never told her family she was pregnant.
Nor did she tell them when she had the baby aborted in February. A month after that abortion she started
dating A.J.
Our
investigation led us to discover that Larry somehow found out in early August
of 1967 about Anita's abortion. Rather
than confronting Anita, Larry confronted Carl.
Evidently he blamed the youth for having gotten his baby sister in trouble
in the first place. We could only
speculate that the hot-headed Larry was threatening to bash Carl's skull in,
when Carl picked up a pipe wrench and started doing some bashing of his own. He covered up his crime by dumping the body
at Balboa Park where the Peace concert was held later that evening. Whether it was intentional homicide, or
whether it was self-defense, will be left to a jury to decide. A.J. and I brought the evidence we had to
Abigail Marsh. The case was reopened
and Carl was arrested three days later.
Megan
came to our office the day after Carl's arrest to settle up her bill. A.J. told her this one was on the house for
old time's sake, but she wouldn't hear of it.
In the end, he didn't charge her nearly what we would have collected on
such an involved case, but I didn't say anything. The past seven days had been hard on him. I wasn't gonna make them harder by bein' a
shit about what Megan owed us. I know
A.J. found out a lotta things about Anita he never knew. Certainly he had never been aware of the
abortion. He'd always been under the
mistaken notion that when they slept together for the first time in June of
1967, Anita had been a virgin just as he had been. I think it made him wonder how he could have been so easily fooled
by a girl he loved so much. I think it
made him question her honesty and her motives.
I think it made him realize for the first time in twenty years, that
they really had come from two different sides of the tracks, as the old saying
went. I know Mom always thought that,
and I guess I kinda did too. I always
liked Anita's spirit, but she was a little too wild for A.J.'s more sedate
tastes. And I always suspected she might
be involved in things he knew nothing about.
I guess the past abortion proved that.
I
subtly studied Megan as she sat across from my brother's desk. She was listening intently as A.J.
summarized the case for her. He was
vague about the details surrounding Larry's confrontation with Carl. He felt it was Anita's place to decide
whether or not she wanted to tell Megan she'd had an abortion. Therefore, he didn't even tell the girl Carl
was one of Anita's old boyfriends. He
just said Carl was a kid all of us went to school with who tended to be mired
in some pretty shady situations. He
told Megan we weren't sure what had happened between Carl and her uncle that
ultimately resulted in her uncle's death, but perhaps one day that would be
revealed to all of us.
Megan
accepted A.J.'s explanation with only a few questions of her own. She didn't seem to care too much as to why
Carl had killed her uncle, but was simply happy the police had resurrected the
case and that Carl was now awaiting trial for Larry's murder.
"And
you're going to tell your mother what we've found out?" A.J. asked her.
Megan
gave a slow nod of her head.
"Yes. Though I'm sure it
will be difficult for her at first.
Even though she's recently begun to suspect Uncle Larry was murdered, it
won't be easy for her to come to terms with that fact, or with the fact that
his murderer walked the streets a free man for twenty years."
"No,"
A.J. agreed quietly. "It won't be
easy."
"Nonetheless,
Mom will be very grateful to both you and Rick for all you've done. I know I am."
Megan stood to leave, A.J. rising
with her. She held out her hand to
him. "Thank you, A.J. For everything."
"Thank
you, Megan," he smiled. "For
just a little while, you've allowed me to go back to a time that was very
special to me. A time I never thought
I'd have the chance to revisit."
"I
hope the memories weren't too painful," the girl said.
"No,"
A.J. shook his head. "They
weren't. And please, tell your mother I
said hello. Tell her she raised a
daughter she can be proud of."
Just
like the first day in our office, Megan's eyes suddenly filled with tears. She swallowed hard. "Thank you, A.J. I will."
The
girl moved forward and wrapped her arms around my brother. He reciprocated the hug in kind, but seemed
a little puzzled as to why she held on to him so tightly, and for so long. She brushed at her eyes when she finally
released him, then turned to me.
"And
thank you, Rick. I appreciate
everything you've done for me as well."
I
shrugged. "Like A.J. said the
first day, you're the daughter of an old friend. That makes you like family in my book."
Our
eyes locked for a long minute before Megan gave a little nod of her head. Something passed between us at that moment.
Something that in a way included A.J., and in another way didn't.
Megan
left our office soon thereafter. She
promised A.J. that someday soon she and her mother would be in touch with
him. A.J. smiled and said he'd look
forward to hearing from both of them.
A.J.
was quiet after Megan was gone. But
then, so was I. At five o'clock we went
our separate ways. A.J. pulled out of
the parking lot, headed in the direction of the Grand Canal. I pulled out of the parking lot, headed in
the direction of the Fillmore Hotel.
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The
clerk behind the desk eyed me with suspicion when I asked him for Megan's room
number.
"I'm
sorry, sir, but we don't give out our patrons' room numbers."
"Then
could you call her please? I need to
talk to her."
"And
whom should I say wants to speak with her?"
I
mimicked his haughty tone. "You
may say Richard Simon wants to speak with her."
The
guy gave me a frosty nod and picked up the phone at the far end of the
counter. He spoke quietly, making it
difficult for me to overhear his words.
He
put the receiver back in its cradle.
"Miss Jennings will be right down."
"Thanks." I walked toward the bank of elevators. Within a minute's time a door slid open and
Megan appeared. Even in faded blue
jeans, a T-shirt, and with her hair pulled up in a ponytail, she was drop dead
gorgeous.
She
nodded her greeting.
"Rick." It was as
though she knew why I was there, and had long ago come to terms with facing the
inevitable.
My
greeting back was equally succinct.
"Megan."
Megan
hadn't been kidding when she'd said the staff of the Fillmore was watchin' out
for her. I counted three guys givin' me
the evil eye from various places around the sumptuous lobby.
"Is
there some place we can talk privately?"
I asked.
"There's
a solarium that overlooks both the indoor and outdoor pools. It's usually pretty quiet in there. Especially throughout the week."
I
jerked my head toward the lobby. "How
about lettin' your father's watchdogs know I'm harmless."
Megan
chuckled. "I'll do
that." She walked over to the desk
clerk. "It's okay, Nick. Mr. Simon
is an old friend of my mother's, and the brother of the other Mr. Simon you've
seen in here on occasion this past week."
The
desk clerk nodded and even tossed me a smile.
The other men returned to their assigned tasks without giving me a
backwards glance. Megan led the way
down a hall and through two doors until we came to a glassed-in solarium. She was right. It was quiet. No one else sat at the wrought iron tables. Potted ferns hung overhead, and from the
left side we could see the outdoor pool.
To my right was the indoor pool and game room. Nothin' was going on inside, but outside a few vacationing
families were takin' advantage of San Diego's ever-present sunshine. The room was soundproof enough to muffle the
shrieks of the kids.
I
walked over to the soda machine.
"You want something? I'm
buyin.’"
"Thank
you. I'll have a Pepsi."
I
fished around in my pocket until I'd come up with the right amount of change
for two Pepsi’s. I handed Megan hers as
I joined her at a table. Neither one of us said anything until we'd drained our
cans to the halfway mark. I sat mine
down then and pushed it aside.
"So, Megan, what's the real story here?"
Usually
I can count on my abrupt, matter-of-fact manner to crack even the most stubborn
of client. Megan was another story,
however. Her stubbornness, so like
A.J.'s, only confirmed what I suspected was fact.
"What
do you mean?"
"I
mean I want the truth. I mean that
you're no more seventeen than I am.
You're story's so full of holes, kid, it looks like a piece a' Swiss
cheese from where I'm sittin.’"
She
smiled at my analogy. "You think
so, huh?"
"I
know so. For one thing, I know you
weren't born Megan Jennings, but rather, you were born Megan Andrea
Cooper. I also know the name of your
father was left off your birth certificate.
And you were born on April 5th, 1968, which means you're a helluva lot
closer to twenty than you are seventeen.
And because I'm fairly good at arithmetic, that means your mother was
pregnant with you when she left San Diego in August of '67. Now I suppose she coulda' been seein'
someone else besides A.J., but just by lookin' at you I know that's not the
case. You're the spitting image of my
brother, and you have a hell of a lotta his mannerisms besides."
Megan
cleared her throat. "How...how did
you find these things out?"
"I
haven't been a private investigator all these years for nothin', kiddo."
"I
realize that," Megan said. "I
mean about your skills and all. But how
did you know? What made you decide to
look into my story in the first place?"
I
shrugged. "A lot of things, I
guess. First of all, I was fairly
certain you were older than seventeen.
Secondly, as I started puttin' two and two together I began seein' how
much you look like A.J. And I also
noticed how difficult it was for you to be around him at times. How much it seemed like you wanted to tell
him something. How many times your eyes
would well up with tears when you looked at him and you thought no one was
watching. And how hard it was for you
to say goodbye to him today.
"So,
kid," I finished. "What's the
scoop? Just why did you show up here in
San Diego and only tell A.J. half the truth?"
Megan
sat a long time in silence, fiddling with her Pepsi can. I finally reached over and gently extracted
it from her hands. That seemed to bring
her out of her trance. She gave me a
slight smile.
"I
came to your office last week for two reasons.
One was to indeed, hire you and A.J. to see what you could find out
about my uncle's death. The other
reason...well, the other reason was to see my father."
"A.J.,"
I stated quietly.
"Yes,"
she nodded. "A.J."
"Have
you always known he's your father?"
"No,”
Megan shook her head. “My mother married the man I know as my father, Michael
Jennings, when I was three years old.
When I was four he legally adopted me.
I don't remember life without him.
Which my mother says is just as well.
Mom had me in a commune north of San Francisco. We lived from hand to mouth during those
years, barely surviving from day to day.
You see, Mom had a drug problem.
An extensive one. By the time I
was two we were living on welfare in a rat-infested apartment building, and my
grandparents were trying to obtain custody of me. Mom said that's what finally caused her to go clean. She loved me very much. I was her whole life. She wasn't going to allow anyone to take me
away from her."
"Did
your grandparents know you were A.J.'s daughter?"
"Yes."
"I
wonder why they never told him?" I
mused out loud.
"Mom
told me it was because they were afraid he'd try to obtain custody of me as
well. And with the way my mother was living at the time, there was a good
chance he'd have gotten me, despite the fact he was male and still in
college. Especially because Mom says
your own mother is well-off financially, as well as has influence among
important people."
I
smiled. "I wouldn't put it quite
that way. I mean, it's not like we grew
up in the lap a' luxury with chauffeurs, or maids, or anything like that. But yes, we lived comfortably, and yes, my
mother would have done anything in her power to help A.J. obtain custody of you
if she thought that's what was best for you. She’d be thrilled to find out she
has a granddaughter, Megan. She'd love
you to pieces."
"Thank
you for telling me that. Maybe someday
I'll get to meet her."
"So
it's not your intention to meet her now?
Or to tell A.J. who you really are?"
"No.
It wasn't my intention at this time to
tell anyone who I really am. You
see, Rick, Michael Jennings is my father.
No, he's not my biological father, but he's the father who read me
bedtime stories, cheered the loudest at my soccer matches, worried about me
when I was sick, taught me how to drive a car, and waited up for me when I was
sixteen and out on my first date. He
loves me very much, just like I love him.
He and my mother have never been able to have children of their
own. I'm the only child he's got. To this day, Dad doesn't know that I
know he's not my real father. It would
break his heart to find out any differently."
"How
did you find out, Megan? Did Anita tell
you?"
"No.
Or at least not until I confronted her about it. One rainy Saturday when I was fifteen Mom and Dad were gone for
the day and I had the house to myself.
I started snooping around in their bedroom - going through Mom's jewelry
and bureau drawers, not really looking for anything or intending to pry, just
whiling away the hours more or less. In
a far back corner of Mom’s closet, behind some long skirts and shoeboxes, I
found a metal filing unit. One of those
small, portable ones that latches in front, but doesn't lock and has a handle
on top. My curiosity got the best of
me. I lifted it out of the closet and
sat it on the bedroom floor.
"The
first thing I ran across was my birth certificate. Naturally I was confused as to why my last name was listed as my
mother's maiden name, and as to why the line for my father's name was left
blank. Then I took out an envelope that
contained Mom and Dad's marriage license.
It showed a wedding date of June 22nd, 1971, as opposed to June 22nd of
1967, like I'd always been led to believe.
Tucked behind the marriage license were my adoption papers. It was then that I realized the man I'd
always known as Dad, wasn't my real father.
I suppose a lot of kids would have started crying at that point - crying
because they'd found out they weren't really the person they'd been led to believe
they were.
"But
oddly enough, I was more curious than upset.
Even though I was only fifteen, I was firmly grounded as to who I
was. I was secure in Dad's love for me,
and the love of his extended family as well, so I guess that's what made it
easy to keep digging. That, and the
fact that my real father is a private investigator." She smiled slightly and her eyes
twinkled. "I guess some of A.J.’s
skills and inquisitiveness have rubbed off on me."
I
smiled back. "Sounds like
it."
"The
next thing I did was read through a stack of letters Mom had kept that A.J.
exchanged with her during their school days.
From those letters I could tell he was different from most high school
boys. More mature and thoughtful. The last letter I read was heartbreaking. It was dated November of 1967. He had given it to my grandmother with the
hope she'd eventually see Mom again and be able to pass it on to her. In it, he wished Mom well, and told her he
stilled loved her and thought of her all the time. He ended it by saying he'd always be there for her if she ever
needed him. I guess it was that letter
that gave me my clearest picture as to what kind of guy he was.
"From
there I came across pictures from Mom's high school days. They were the first ones I'd ever seen. Whenever I'd asked in the past to see
pictures of her teen years, Mom always said they must have gotten lost in one
of our moves. Now I knew why she'd
never shown them to me. A.J. was in
almost every one of them. As soon as I
saw him I knew he was my father. It was
like seeing a masculine version of my own face. If I hadn't known better, I would have thought I was looking at
my twin brother. I even got out my most
recent school picture and studied the two of us side by side. It was weird, Rick, to finally discover why
I didn't look like either my mother or father.
To discover I looked like a young man I never even knew existed. And his name, Andrew...I knew then, that's
where my middle name came from. Mom had
always told me Andrea was in honor of an old friend of hers. I thought it was odd I never met that old
friend. You tend to assume if you're named for someone, then at least once in
your life you'll get to meet that person.
I even asked my grandmother about it one time. About Mom's old friend from high school, Andrea, and why I'd
never met her. Grandma got kind of a
funny look on her face and finally stammered,
"Oh...Andrea...yes, well I think her family moved away a long time
ago, honey," then she changed the subject."
Megan
reached for her soda can and took a long swallow.
"After
I put the pictures away I found newspaper clipping upon newspaper clipping
about you and A.J. and your business.
My grandmother had been sending them to my mother all these years,
keeping her abreast of A.J.'s life with the hope that someday Mom would tell me
about him."
"So
your grandmother felt you should know that A.J. was your real dad?"
"As
I grew older, yes she did. She had
wanted Mom to tell me for a number of years.
But Mom wouldn't do it for several reasons. For one my dad...Michael, didn't want her to. For another, both Mom and Dad feared A.J.
would try to take me away from them.
Though Dad had legally adopted me, they feared A.J. would have a strong
case against them in court, considering Mom never told him about me.
"Looking
back on it now I realize Grandma almost told me herself several times. I always spent two weeks with her and
Grandpa here in San Diego every summer.
She used to take me by A.J.'s home on the Grand Canal, by your mother's
home, and by your office. She'd drive
slowly, and time after time almost came to a stop. I never thought too much of it.
I just thought she was showing me the scenery. But now I think Grandma really wanted to tell me, but just didn't
know how, as well as knowing it wasn't her place."
"And
so you confronted your mother with all the information you'd found," I
guessed.
"Not
right then I didn't. Not that day. I needed time to absorb it. To come to terms with how I felt about
it. I'd be lying if I didn't say I was
upset with my mother for not being honest with me all those years. But two weekends later, when my dad was gone
on a fishing trip, I took that file box out of Mom's closet and confronted
her. We both cried for a long
time. But slowly then, Mom told me the
story of A.J. and my uncle's death, and why she left without ever telling A.J.
she was pregnant."
"Why
did she?"
"She
was scared, of course. Scared of what the news would do to her parents so soon after
her brother's death, and scared of what they would say. And of what your mother would say. She had always been a little afraid of your
mother. She said your mother
intimidated her."
I
wished I coulda' denied that, but I couldn't.
Mom had never liked Anita much, and while she'd always been pleasant to
her, it was a distant sort of pleasantness that obviously Anita had read
through.
"And
Mom didn't want to force A.J. to marry her.
She knew that's what her parents and your mother would have insisted
upon. And that's what A.J. would have insisted upon, as well. She was afraid he'd never be able to finish
college with the responsibilities of a wife and baby, and she didn't want to do
that to him. She didn't want to take
away his chances at being somebody. And
she said, deep down, she knew a marriage between herself and A.J. would never
work. That they were too different to
have a good life together. Or at least
right at that time they were. So Mom
left without telling A.J. she was pregnant.
My grandparents didn't even know where she was, or that she was
pregnant, until she called them one day when I was six months old. Even then, it was another four months before
they knew who my father was."
"Anita
told them?"
"No,"
Megan shook her head. "It was
never her intention to. But that's when
they saw me for the first time. Grandma
said she knew the moment she laid eyes on me that I was A.J. Simon's daughter.
But by then Mom was so strung out on drugs, and bogged down in so many other
problems, that Grandma and Grandpa were afraid to tell A.J. for the reason I
mentioned earlier."
"That
he'd try to get custody of you," I said.
"Yes, and in so doing take me away from
them. Possibly not ever allow them to
see me."
"A.J.
woulda' never done that, Megan. I want
you to know that. Yes, if he was
concerned for your well being he woulda' tried to get the courts to give him
sole custody of you. But he never,
never would have robbed your grandparents of the opportunity of being a part of
your life."
"I
know that now, Rick. After meeting
A.J., after being with him this past week...well, I know what kind of a man he
is, and I know he'd never intentionally hurt anyone."
"No,
Megan, he wouldn't."
She
took another swallow of soda before completing her story. "Mom and I talked about a lot of things
throughout that weekend. We both agreed
that for the time being, I wouldn't let on to Dad that I knew he wasn't my real
father. She told me she had intended to
tell me the truth when I turned eighteen, despite Michael's wishes. Mom and I decided then, that when I did turn
eighteen, the three of us would sit down together and discuss it. I remember thinking that was a long time to
wait. I'll admit I was kind of anxious
to meet A.J., but I didn't want to hurt my dad either. Somehow I managed to push it all to the back
of my mind so I could keep going from day to day. Then right before my eighteenth birthday our lives took a
nosedive. Dad started having episodes
of shortness of breath. Then he started
tiring easily and losing weight. That
went on all last summer and into the fall.
By November he had grown so weak he couldn't get out of bed. The doctors said he'd contracted an unusual
viral infection that was causing his heart to die. His only hope of survival was a transplant. He was put on a waiting list until four
weeks ago when he finally got his new heart.
So far things have gone well, but the doctors won't give any
guarantees. Things could turn sour
tomorrow and we could lose him. Or we
could have him with us for many years to come.
It's just too early to tell."
"And
that's why you've never told him what you know?"
"Yes,
Rick, that's why. I just can't right
now. I can't do that to him."
"But
you came here," I pointed out.
"You came to San Diego and sought out A.J."
"Yes,
but not with the intention of telling him who I was. Just with the intention of seeing him...meeting him...and for a
little while having the chance to know my father. Dad's illness and Grandma's death simply afforded me the
opportunity I needed to get here alone.
Without Mom."
"So
Anita really doesn't know you came to me and A.J. asking us to look into
Larry's death?"
"No,
she doesn't. She would have forbid me
to had I even suggested it. Coming to see
you and A.J. was my idea. There are a
lot of private investigators in this city, Rick. I could have hired any one of them to investigate Uncle Larry's
death. But instead I chose A.J."
"So
where do we go from here, kiddo?"
She
looked at me through hooded eyes.
"What do you mean?"
"Look,
Megan, while I respect your feelings for Michael, the truth of the matter is,
A.J. is your father. You and
Anita are doing him a disservice by not telling him that. Do you have any idea how much he'd want to be
a part of your life? Do you have any
idea as to how difficult this is all gonna be for him when he does finally
discover the truth?"
She
gave a small nod. "I know. I can't deny any of what you're saying. But please...please try to understand. With my dad's health the way it is, now is
just not the right time."
I
wasn't gonna let her off the hook that easily.
"When will the time be right?"
"I've
been thinking a lot about that in recent days, and I'm going to make you a
promise."
"And
that promise is?"
"That
promise is, provided my dad's health improves in the next six months like the
doctors are hoping it will, then I'll tell him. I'll tell him that I've known for almost five years that he's not
my biological father. But you see,
Rick, I have to make him understand that fact will never change my love for
him. I have to make him understand that
while A.J.'s my father he...Michael, is my daddy. There is a difference you know."
"Yeah,
kiddo," I stated softly. "I
know. So will A.J."
"My
dad's a good man, Rick. One of the
best. As a matter of fact, I think he
and A.J. will get along great if they both just give it a chance. Ironically enough, they share many of the
same interests. What I'm hoping is that once Dad has a chance to assimilate all
I have to tell him, he'll agree to Mom and me flying down here to see A.J. Obviously my mother has a lot of explaining
to do to him."
"Yes. She certainly does. And I'm not gonna kid ya' about that,
Megan. It won't be easy. A.J. can have a helluva temper when riled,
and he is gonna be upset. He'll
be furious at your mom for keeping you from him all these years."
"I
realize that. And truthfully, I don't
blame him. I was furious at her for a
while, too"
"But
he'll get over it," I promised.
"Once he's had a chance to calm down, he'll be able to come to
terms with the decisions Anita made.
A.J.'s a fair man, and is pretty good at seein' both sides of the
story. It's gonna take him some time,
but eventually I think he and your mom will even be friends again. And someday...well someday he might even
want to tell Michael thank you for being your dad, and for raising such a fine
daughter."
Megan
reached across the table and took my hand in hers. She squeezed hard and said through her tears, "Thanks,
Rick. For everything."
A
long moment passed before her hand slipped out of mine and she wiped her
eyes. "The one thing I don't
understand is how come you figured out so easily who I was, but A.J.
hasn't?"
"Well,
darlin,’ that just goes to show ya,’ that I'm the one with the brains in the
family."
My
niece already knew me too well. I felt
a light kick to my shins.
"Rick..."
I
smiled. "You sound just like your
old man when you scold me, you know that, sweetie?"
Megan
smiled in return, but didn't let me off that easily. "Really, Rick. I'm
serious. How come? When I realized you probably knew, I was so
afraid A.J. was going to come to the same conclusion."
"A.J.
tends to take people at face value, Megan.
Maybe he's even kinda innocent that way. Unless someone's story sounds too outlandish to be true, he
believes what people tell him. I guess
that's 'cause he's such an honest man himself that the idea of someone
purposefully deceiving him doesn't cross his mind."
"Yes,
but you knew just by looking at me that I was A.J.'s daughter."
"That's
true, but it's easier for someone like me, who's on the outside lookin' in, to
see the resemblance, as opposed to A.J., who's on the inside lookin' out. Besides, to him you're simply a beautiful
young woman who happens to be the daughter of an old girlfriend. A.J. doesn't see himself as good looking,
and has never really understood why women are always making such a fuss over
him. I suppose that's what makes him so
appealing to the fairer sex. And, I
also suppose, that's why he doesn't look at you and see himself."
"I
suppose you're right," Megan shrugged.
I could tell she still didn't fully understand, but someday I knew she
would. Someday when she'd had the
opportunity to really get to know A.J.
We
both sat in silence for a few minutes each, lost in our own thoughts.
"Rick?"
I'd
been staring out at the kids playing in the pool. "Yeah?"
"I
know I'm asking a lot of you, but you won't tell A.J., will you? That I'm his daughter?"
I
took a deep breath and let it out slowly.
She was right. She was askin' a
lot of me.
"Megan,
overall I don't feel I have any more right to tell A.J. who you are, than your
grandmother felt she had the right to tell you who he was. Therefore no, I'm not plannin' on telling
him any time soon. But eventually he
has to know. And I don't mean ten or
twenty years from now. He has the right
to know you now, Megan. Before anymore
time slips away from both of you."
She
smiled at me as we bartered. "So
how long will you give me?"
"The
six months you told me you'd need at the start of our conversation. Then I want to hear from you one way or
another. I'm not sayin' I'll go ahead
and tell him if the time still isn't right.
I respect the fact that your dad's having some major health problems
right now, and neither A.J. nor I would want to be the cause of more trouble
for him. But you and your mother need
to discuss this. You need to tell her
what you've done and what I know. I
have a feelin' that will make Anita realize neither of you has a choice
anymore. It’ll make her realize that, as soon as possible, Michael has to know
what's goin' on...and so does A.J."
"I
don't disagree with you, Rick. And I
promise I'll keep in touch with you. If
things go as I hope they will, I'll see you again some time early next
year."
As
I got to my feet I told her, "I'm holdin' ya' to that, kid."
She
stood as well, but made no move to follow me.
"I'll
walk you up to your room."
Megan
shook her head. "Thank you, but
I'd like to sit here by myself a little while longer."
Suddenly
she looked like she had the weight of the world on
her shoulders, and I remembered how young
nineteen was.
"You're
sure you don't want me to stick around a while?"
"No. I'll be fine. Really."
"Okay,"
I reluctantly agreed. "If you're
sure."
"I
am."
I
held my hand out to her. She shook it,
then just held on to it for a moment and gave it a little squeeze.
When
she released me I turned and walked toward the door.
"Uncle
Rick?"
I
smiled, and turned back to face her.
"Yeah?"
She
walked over to me and wrapped her arms around my neck. "I've never had the opportunity to call
anyone that," she said softly.
"You're the only uncle I've got.
I kind of like how it sounds."
I
chuckled as I held her against me.
"I like how it sounds, too, sweetie. I like how it sounds, too."
S&S S&S S&S S&S S&S S&S
It's
been seven months since Megan's visit.
I've kept my promise to her and never let on to A.J. that she was anyone
other than Megan Jennings, the daughter of Anita and Michael. I've talked to my niece three times since
then. Her father's health has continued
to improve, and two months ago he returned to work. Last week when Megan was home from college on spring break she
and Anita told Michael what Megan had known since she was fifteen. That he's not her biological father. Megan said he cried at first. They all did. But she feels confident that she's made him understand he will
always be her daddy, and that no man can ever take his place in her life, or in
her heart.
Not
even A.J.
Now,
with Megan's twentieth birthday rapidly approaching, she and Anita are making
plans for their upcoming trip to San Diego.
I know everything they have to tell A.J. is gonna come as shock to
him. There's gonna be a lot of anger, a
lot of regrets, a lot of unanswered questions, and a lot of tears. But given time, I know he'll work through
it. It's my hope that the three of
them, A.J., Anita, and Megan, will work through it together. No, make that the four of them - A.J.,
Anita, Megan, and Michael, the man who helped raise Megan and calls her
daughter.
Of
course, it's a given that I'll be there to help A.J. over the rough spots. As will Mom, once she gets over the
astonishment the news is bound to cause her.
I
thought the turbulent sixties were dead.
Long dead and buried somewhere deep in the memories of the baby boomers
who had lived through those times. But
looking at the beautiful young woman I call niece, who's an indirect product of
those times, I realize the sixties are very much alive and well, and were never
meant to be forgotten. And when I look
into Megan's face and see my brother's eyes and his smile, I know that's how it
should be.
~
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*The sequel to this story, Daddy’s
Little Girl, can be found in the Simon and Simon Library under California
Dreamin.’